[do NOT read this unless you have read the beginning of curse breaking, it won't make sense] Session 2 Oct. 3, 2004 was hard. Very hard. I learned things I had no clue about. I went back to when I was a baby in the crib. I couldn't remember, or couldn't say, so Scott and Liz called up the demon in charge and he said what happened. It was my voice, as I heard it. He was laughing. Demons were delivered out of me that had attached themselves to those ages and areas. I heard Jesus tell me I am pretty, in a good way, not as the words I had heard as a little girl, in a not nice way. I crawled up into Jesus' lap. He held me and soothed me. I got past more anger and more hurt and deep, deeeep wounds. I am still going through crying and questioning, as you will see when you read the conversation I had with God. I am still feeling most of the time like a little girl. I sit on the sofa, curled up and close my eyes and I'm on Jesus' lap. I sit in the hot tub, talk to God and cry. I cry for the hurts still inside me. I cry for the loss of security. I cry because of new knowledge. And I sit in Jesus' lap when I cry. Sitting there is soothing. I have never known the peace of sitting in a parent's lap and being soothed, that I can remember, so this is new to me. So I will sit in Jesus' lap and cry as long as I want too. As long as I need too. And He will hold me. And soothe me. back