OWWW!! Steve called today and said he has an interview at 2:30 [in Ft. Huachuca] with a company that is hiring security guards…in Iraq. I spent most of the afternoon praying about it and thinking about it and being late for two appts so he could talk to me on the phone about it. Yet when he got home, i asked HIM what are his thoughts on it. He told me. Not once, did he ask me what MY thoughts are/were. Not once. I've spent the last 10 years trying to make him interested in me. He is not. I know this is not ME, it's HIM. He's not interested in anything but himself and very little of that even. God PLEASE move him out of this house. He successfully cut any ties or strings I may have had for him tonight. He has not changed in 10 years. I doubt he will change now. I KNOW God can work miracles. And maybe God will. Who knows. I WISH I could move from here. But I heard God say a few minutes ago He wants me here. In this house. For 'when it happens, I want you here' Oh, all these revelations have been coming over the last several months. Each one hurts. I guess it's that I have to grow up and face reality. It's scary. I know THIS is the time orchestrated by God for this. It still hurts. Please pray for me. Back Blue Sage Naturals