11/15/10 I received the rhema Sunday, as the new morning came in at 12:02 a.m. that God is MY Father! Awesome, just awesome. NOW I also understand the part when you die as 'going home'. I understood part of it before, but now I FULLY 'get it'. I am just swarming with all these feelings of awe. I don't think it would have happened without all the inner healing and deliverance I've been thru. See Rapha Ministries for reference. I Get It now on some scriptures with reference to God as Father. I FEEL like His princess. I sit in the hot tub and cry because I'm soooo in awe that the God of this UNIVERSE is MY FATHER! Wow! How awesome is that??? Holy Spirit has healed me of SO nany terrible thgs that happened to me as a child. The last session I had, about 3 weeks ago, Holy Spirit healed one of my wounded parts, a 2 yr old. One of the ones that sucks her thumb. Elizabeth always asks Jesus to come stand with me so I can feel and see Him. What I have found is Jesus doesn't usually speak with His mouth, yet I hear Him clearly. And it's not words, it's words and feelings and knowledge all at the same time, imparted, without words spoken. It must be like when we die, the Bible says now we see thru a glass darkly, but when we die, we will know fully just as we are known. In this session, after I asked Jesus to come live in my heart, He put a white dress with a pink sash on me, very lacy, satiny and pretty, and a robe of pink satin, a crown on my head, gave me a scepter and put pink heels with pink feathers on them on my feet. He made ME His Princess! She sat on His lap and He comforted her. Big, huge deal. When I came home I was telling God I wish I could be a Daddy's princess, that I would know what that feels like. I asked God 'how am I going to feel it? Will You show me?' Saturday nite, just as I was beginning to pray, I said, 'Father'. ALL OF A SUDDEN a FEELING flooded me, an UNDERSTANDING FLOODED me...GOD is my FATHER! I've been born again since June 6, 1979. I've been walking with him since 1981. I have struggled ALL my Christian life with scriptures like, 'if you ask your Father for a bread, will he give you a stone'? Mt 7.9 or Luke 11.11 I always struggled with that. Now, because I understand GOD is my FATHER, I GET IT! Those ones where we are His children. And how Jesus Christ is my SAVIOR, yet, my brother. I am a JOINT HEIR with Jesus, I will do greater works than Jesus did, because the Holy Spirit of God lives in me. Which is WHY Jesus HAD to leave this earth, so the Holy Spirit could be sent out, into people's hearts and hovering over the land. About 2 weeks ago, I spoke out loud...'if I was the only person here, Jesus would have died for ONLY ME'. I've said that to others, but didn't know it in my heart, just said it by faith. Until that evening, Oct 30 or 31, I had NEVER said it out loud to MY self. I said it, and believing ability flooded my heart. I cried then too, and I was driving! lol All these scriptures have lately become real to me. NOW, to understand GOD, the GOD OF THIS UNIVERSE...is MY Father!!! WOW. I AM His princess! Today is Monday and I'm still swimming in this newfound understanding, expanding, expanding on the feelings, the understanding. Back