God you have a plan. I know you have a plan. I pray you implement your plan now. It's not a matter of acting like a Christian in front of Steve, he thinks he's born again with a personal relationship with Christ. He is saved I believe, however your Word says 'you will know them by their fruit'. Lord, since it FINALLY sunk in, after 9 long years, that I'm the only one in a relationship, it's like all pretense with Steve has fallen off. Last nite he said, when I asked him why he likes to sleep in 'my' room, [where the queen bed is, instead of his room, because he snores, sometimes pretty badly], he said, 'because the bed is more comfortable' He is probably relieved he doesn't have to say other words to make me feel good. I still wish he would. Sometimes a lie is better than the truth. Lord, last Thursday I wrote to two sets of folks at church in the marriage ministry. I wrote about the porn I found on Steve's computer and his lies about it. Here it is Tuesday, and STILL no email back from either one of the couples. However, true to his nature, I got an email back from the Pastor. Bless him Lord. You saw how I handled it Lord, it was you in me all the way. I think that was because I was fasting that day for our marriage. Not accusing Steve but showing and telling him by my words how disappointing it is that he felt the need to lie, instead of telling the truth. Especially when caught red-handed. He still acted like children do, and lied about it and lied trying to give a 'reason'. On Friday, he admitted he lied. On Saturday, he was back to lying again about it. God, you have a plan, please execute it. God, you said in a prophetic word to me last Oct [2006] that I would again have close friends. Specifially you said thru Jon Hatton: "Janine I really sense that over the last 2 years there's been a lot of changes in your life, a lot of shifting. And there's been relationships that have left you or you've left them, but it was the will of God, there was a transitioning, it was the will of God, and God's gonna bring that back to you, he's gonna bring that back to you b/c of your faithfulness b/c all you've done is what he's told you to do and you've moved in submission which is kind of new for you, you've moved in submission and God's gonna honor you for that. These relationships are gonna come back, the ones that are very very special to you, and the ones that you really miss, you really miss. They're gonna come back to you." God PERFORM YOUR WORDS OVER ME I PRAY in the Name of Jesus. God you have a plan for me. I know you have a plan. Please implement your plan. In Jesus' name. I had a dream last nite, June 4, 2007 that some guy named Kevin, a customer wrote and said, 'I know you have it tough, and things aren't right with your business, because you're a small business, but when are you going to get it right? I've asked twice for you to send the stuff I ordered and it STILL wasn't in the box. I don't know how you keep business going with this shoddy way of doing things. You may have lost my business as well. Please send me the item I ordered". Father, for wont of a better way of thinking about it, I see that as saying I need to hire someone who is responsible and will get the job done right, cause Steve ISN"T.