3/7/05
When we were praying before Steve went to bed, he was blessing me. It so touched my heart. I was crying. God has created a marriage for us. Not recreated it, cause there wasn't one there in the first place. It's been a long time coming, but it's here now and I am so in love with Steve and Steve is changing too. Since the report of severe osteoporosis, I guess it caused him to wake up some, and realize how important I am to him. [update 5-5-05, he's forgotten]

At 51, I've accomplished almost all I've wanted. I've created products that heal people, I am successful at formulating and researching. I have been the answer to some people's dreams, and the products I have formulated have tremendously helped people.

My products have helped children. They have made people, tall and small feel better about themselves, because their skin not only looks better, but is healthier.

I have a husband who is SO in love with me. I have a house, with a pool AND a spa.
I have a dog, a perfect dog. He doesn't snarl, doesn't bite, doesn't pee or poop where or when he shouldn't. [he gets in the trash and will get food off the counter if left out overnight though, nothing's perfect yanno?]

I have a marriage that is really, really good. Seven years it took and a TON of heartache and a TON of prayers. And much tears. [well, it was at the time of writing, and I'm believing God to put a heart of flesh in him and remove the heart of stone]

And my husband has a wife who is more in love with him than I ever thought I could be. A man who now, sticks up for me. Who agrees with me in many matters of the heart, AND lets me know. A man who has always hugged me and told me he loves me. A man who promised from the first to always love me. No matter what. And he's kept his word, thru some VERY trying times.

And most importantly, I have learned God loves me. I have learned that no MAN can do anything for me. That everything is about God. I have learned to go to God and not to friends, or even, my husband. I have learned the Holy Spirit is stronger than any demon and more loving and caring and tender and gentle that I ever thought, if I ever thought about it.

And I realize that everything comes from God. Absolutely nothing comes from man.
God is my father, my mother, my sister, my brother. He is a present help in times of trouble. He is my refuge, my shelter, my high tower, my provider. He's been my husband. He's my comforter. He loves me, he wants the best for me. I am his beloved daughter.

At 51, married 7 yrs this second time, there are still some things I want to accomplish, some things I want to do. But if I died tomorrow, I would die happy, having accomplished and achieved the major goals in my life. To love and be loved. To honor God, to help others.
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