4/16/10

I've been on a 3 day fast for my soon-to-be ex-husband. [as soon as he gets a job and we can pay for it]. He had a session today with Scott and Liz. We all four were supposed to be fasting, but I guess only Steve and I were.

The sessions are 3 hours long. Now you know I wanted to break my fast, knowing he was in his session don't you? But I didn't. I thought...well, I'll wait til he gets home and we can break it together.

Now every time I've left there, I've called him to tell him I'm on my way home. But do you think he called me? NOOOOOOOO.

Back when I used to tell him what was said, what went on. They usually talk about 'us'. So I asked what did they say about 'us'. He said Liz is holding out hope that we will not divorce. ?????? They urged me to GET one. He said he sorta is too. I said [for the umpteenth time] he will have to do a 180 degree change. He said he thinks he has. ?????? In what area??? Smallest area..he never puts 2 and 2 together, to come up with...anything.

And when he walked in, he had a bag of cherry tomatos. I asked if he ate them, he said yes. WHAT?????!!!!

God, I should have known and I should have acted accordingly. Steve NEVER thinks about US as being an US. NEVER. As usual, he was only thinking of himself. I am SO hurt. SO HURT.

So while I'm yelling at him, I say, 'do you KNOW why I'm so mad'? He says, 'because i didn't share with you what went on'. Huh????? WTF???
I said, 'PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER'. [no, I yelled it] And asked the question again. He says...'duh...no'. I screamed, 'because I'm HURT'. Then I told him to leave the house. gee whiz How CAN someone be SO STUPID for SO LONG in their life???

I will NEVER fast again for Steve unless God says I must.


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